This past Sunday we attempted to get our family photo taken. Wow, what I was thinking trying to get a 15 month old and a 1 month old to cooperate? Only in a perfect world. The whole day was glorious preparing for the shoot. Colette took a great nap, Maelyn ate right before we left...and then we arrived. I guess one day I'll look back and laugh at the half hour (all our photographer could handle) of our girls taking turns screaming. I got some memorable photos myself after the shoot.
The title of this post perfectly captures what happened that day, and honestly what composes most of our lives right now. I've been reflecting a lot lately on what it means to be a mother. I feel buried at times by all the menial tasks that make up my day. Does anyone notice or care how many times I do dishes and pick up toys? How does it mean anything when others are clothing the naked, feeding the hungry? Wait a second though, I'm doing that! God has given me such a gift in giving me motherhood. It is such an opportunity to love, to learn humility. I've been finding myself comparing myself to other mothers. Every mommy blogger, or Facebook mother-they have ten children that they homeschool and teach about God and feed all organic, etc. But I don't have to prove that I'm a good mom to them. I am good enough for my children, my husband thinks I'm good enough. God thinks I'm good enough. I have to believe it too. Its not worth it, I'm realizing, trying to live someone else's life. Even if mine is the smallest and most insignificant of lives, if I, I, live it well, than it will have been worth it. God, I give you my life, my chaos, make it and me beautiful.
The title of this post perfectly captures what happened that day, and honestly what composes most of our lives right now. I've been reflecting a lot lately on what it means to be a mother. I feel buried at times by all the menial tasks that make up my day. Does anyone notice or care how many times I do dishes and pick up toys? How does it mean anything when others are clothing the naked, feeding the hungry? Wait a second though, I'm doing that! God has given me such a gift in giving me motherhood. It is such an opportunity to love, to learn humility. I've been finding myself comparing myself to other mothers. Every mommy blogger, or Facebook mother-they have ten children that they homeschool and teach about God and feed all organic, etc. But I don't have to prove that I'm a good mom to them. I am good enough for my children, my husband thinks I'm good enough. God thinks I'm good enough. I have to believe it too. Its not worth it, I'm realizing, trying to live someone else's life. Even if mine is the smallest and most insignificant of lives, if I, I, live it well, than it will have been worth it. God, I give you my life, my chaos, make it and me beautiful.
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